[The reminder that there's a little girl in the room watching Alfie slowly bleed out and die by degrees sobers John quite a bit, even if that hadn't been Alfie's intention.]
Mm...
[His voice is softer.]
If you need to, you can take a few more of those Vicodin, y'know? Sleep out the rest of this, get a jump start on those dreams.
[There's a lump that forms in John's throat, and he has to swallow a few times to clear it. How did he get this attached? Of course, it had barely taken a week for Sherlock, and he's known Alfie longer, but Sherlock... bloody hell. Alfie is the man who held a scalpel to his neck, the scalpel he's carrying now.]
Okay. Yeah. There's still a chance, though. You're not getting rid of all of us that easy, mate.
I'd die for a cuppa. Nice earl grey. Not actually die. You'll be taking care of that for the both of us. They'd best put a few teabags in your pack for the trouble.
[He really is not going to be able to handle this if he doesn't fall back on some gallows humor.]
[He doesn't have the heart to tell Alfie they've already talked a little about Ecks getting a pie.]
I did. Lucky gits. Listen, Alfie... it sounds like you're having a little trouble catching your breath. Why don't you take a break? We can talk a little later, right?
[Maybe, maybe not. His heart is breaking just a bit at the moment, though.]
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[He chuckles again, and closes his eyes.]
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[It makes up for his height, or so he tells himself.]
Hit a bit of dry spell about two and half years ago, though, if that makes it easier on you, mate.
[He's only teasing.]
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[He pauses for another breather.]
I don't get many of those. Only when I'm holidaying in Alaska.
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[Look, he overhears things. It's enough to tease the other man with.]
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Mm...
[His voice is softer.]
If you need to, you can take a few more of those Vicodin, y'know? Sleep out the rest of this, get a jump start on those dreams.
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[Royce had suggested ending it early too, but Alfie gives the same answer here.]
No. I might not wake up. There's a good chance of it, yeah? I'd rather live as long as I can, even if it's here.
[Even if it's in horrible pain.]
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Okay. Yeah. There's still a chance, though. You're not getting rid of all of us that easy, mate.
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[Did he say that already? He can't remember.]
The bakery-- we really did bake bread sometimes, you know. It wasn't just a cover.
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What was your favorite type, then? Me, I love a good sourdough.
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[There's a catch in his throat, and John falls silent for a moment, forcing down the emotion.]
I heard there's chocolate ice cream, too. Promised that to Ecks a while ago.
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[He wouldn't turn down either.]
Give her an apple cake.
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[He really is not going to be able to handle this if he doesn't fall back on some gallows humor.]
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I did. Lucky gits. Listen, Alfie... it sounds like you're having a little trouble catching your breath. Why don't you take a break? We can talk a little later, right?
[Maybe, maybe not. His heart is breaking just a bit at the moment, though.]
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[Still, he can feel himself fading, and the haziness is getting worse and worse.]
Later. Talk later.
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