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[jumpthegun]

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[jumpthegun]

I'd like to believe that.

[But he doesn't.]

What happens when your mania kicks in again? And are you going to tell me it's still on me to make the decision to contact the Admin now you've got your head back?

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[circumsutus]

Dying worked this time. I'll see if it works again.

[jumpthegun]

[No.]

Dr. Stein, that is a waste of resources, it might not work, and it just leaves us with the problem of you still reaching that point in the first place.

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[circumsutus]

It's only a waste of resources if they bring me back. Do you think I could get a DNR here?

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[jumpthegun]

No. I don't. I think it's an automated process and Eve is gonna ignore what you want for it.

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[circumsutus]

I could try. Even an automated process can be canceled with the right intervention.

[He doesn't want to die. Selfishly, wrongly, he wants to live. But he doesn't have that option, he's too dangerous, his leash is stretched and snapped and it's only his current mental stability keeping the others safe.]

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[jumpthegun]

[John is going to scream. How many men is he going to have to talk down from suicide here?]

Dr. Stein, you are not better off dead. You're better off treated.

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[circumsutus]

Currently I have contributed nothing to our escape or survival. I am a drain on resources. I have attacked and injured multiple people who should have been able to trust me. My survival benefits no one.

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[jumpthegun]

Your future hasn't been written, Dr. Stein. That's your past. You have the power to change things going forward if you feel as though you aren't contributing enough to warrant concern.

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[circumsutus]

I will give in to madness again. I can't change that. I will hurt people again maybe even kill them. My ability to contribute is limited because of brain damage. This is the best option for everyone around me.

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[jumpthegun]

You have another option, Dr. Stein. I don't understand why you won't take it when you're sane and level like this. Why you expect me to make the choice for you.

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[circumsutus]

I've already lobotomized myself once. Why would I do it again?

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[jumpthegun]

Dr. Stein, you asked me to do it, instead. Which would indicate to me, on some level, you're prepared to go through with this procedure that we do not know is akin to a lobotomy.

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[circumsutus]

If I become a danger to those around me I want you to take me down. Back home all of my coworkers are authorized to kill me if necessary. Because of the revival system that is not a viable option here and the next best thing is to have the Admin modify my personality.

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[jumpthegun]

That still doesn't answer why it has to be me. I'm not the only doctor.

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[circumsutus]

You would feel bad about it.

I don't want someone reckless holding that kind of power over me.

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[jumpthegun]

[He wants to throw something. He wants to hit Stein. He wants to not be in this position. It's not fair.]

Claire isn't reckless. Neither is Dr. Strange. [He hardly knows Strange, but from some appearances...]

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[circumsutus]

Good for them

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[jumpthegun]

I'm saying there are other doctors here that are like me. Why does it have to be me? They'll be more objective, anyway. They haven't known you as long.

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[circumsutus]

I trust you. I don't trust them yet.

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[jumpthegun]

You cut out my eye while I was awake, you've lobotomized a patient under my care, and you expect me to be objective?

[circumsutus]

No. I expect you to be morally conflicted.

[jumpthegun]

That's not a good quality for a medical proxy!

[circumsutus]

It's the quality I'm looking for in a medical proxy.

[jumpthegun]

I hate you. I'm not just saying that. I honestly hate you right now. This isn't fair! It's not good for me, it's not good for you, and it sure as hell isn't good for everyone else!