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[jumpthegun]

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[awwnoun]

[ Oh. Yeah, that's. ]

Fuck. I'm sorry. [ He kind of flounders for a second. ] What are you going to do?

[jumpthegun]

Nothing. What's there to do? I shouldn't even be angry at him. It is what it is. We still need to get everyone out of here. Sherlock will help with that.

[awwnoun]

You should be mad at him. I'd be furious. He's your best friend, you don't just fake your death like that, it - it's devastating. And when they come back it just feels cheap, like you hurt for no reason.

[jumpthegun]

He did it to save lives.

[Why is he arguing in Sherlock's favor here? Mainly to see if there are justifications that Clint can find around the point. John's still angry. Having someone else agree that it's legitimate is a little comforting.]

[awwnoun]

You don't always gotta be about the greater good. Just because he saved lives doesn't mean you can't be pissed that he lied. Your own happiness matters, man. Everybody's does.

[jumpthegun]

The great good is more important than I am.

[That's why it's called the greater good, Clint.]

[awwnoun]

No, it's just as important as you. [ He'll argue this to the death. ] What's the point of the greater good if the individuals in it are miserable?

I'm not saying he shoulda not done it to save your feelings. I'm an Avenger, I'm almost - like, contractually obligated to say that. I'm saying it's fine to be pissed about it because that's a valid thing to be pissed about.

[jumpthegun]

[Well, that's something John would tell other people, but he's supposed to do better than this, look at the whole instead of considering himself first. On the whole, what Sherlock did was right. But knowing that doesn't help the way John feels.

He wishes Fiona were here.]

He said I was angry before. Will be angry. But he doesn't think we can make it up this time.

I'm so angry with him, Clint. Every time I look at him I just want to hit him. I can't trust him. He never trusted me as much as I thought he did. It'd be easier parting ways. I don't want him around, but I don't want to him to go, either. I need him.

[Which leads to some of his current and very self-inflicted dilemma.]

[awwnoun]

Yeah. I know how that feels. [ With Natasha, with Bobbi, with a lot of people he's come across in the past. Clint sighs heavily, thinking. ] I don't really have a good thing to say when it comes to that. There's some people I never got over being angry with and there's some people I did.

I guess just don't feel like you can't be mad. You can be. That's part of getting over it, if you wanna.

[jumpthegun]

[John just sighs, frustrated. He didn't really want to talk about this in the first place and now he feels like an idiot for it.]

Sure. Thanks. Sorry you've felt this way before.

[awwnoun]

You don't have to offer a sorry back, man. Take a second to only be concerned about you. It's gonna save you a lot of pain, I think.

[jumpthegun]

There are too many other people to worry about. I have to go, Clint. Bye.

[awwnoun]

Yeah.

Be careful. Bye.