[That is the worst question he could be asked. It's too broad, and he's hiding a lot.]
I'm not sure what answer you want from me, John.
[That skirts the border of truth, but it's sort of there. Does he mean what does he last remember about Norfinbury, about the ice caves? Or what does he last remember overall? It skirts the edge because Sherlock is relatively sure he means the ice caves, John could have no way of knowing that he's been home and come back.]
[It would take literal weeks to list off all the things he's hiding, because John doesn't even specify what he's hiding from him. Sherlock is a man of many secrets.
He's still thinking on how to answer this when his fingers move of their own accord to do it for him.]
I'm hiding my death price, I can't tell a lie. Don't ask me any more, John.
Sherlock squints at the screen for a moment, is this somehow related to his death price?]
I can affirm that this is neither dream nor coma. Tell me why you believe it is.
[Yes, keep the questions on John, stop him asking any more himself. John is smart, he could winkle anything he wanted out of Sherlock right now and that has to be avoided.]
[Damn it, John. Sherlock doesn't respond for nearly half a minute, staring at the wall as he thought for a way around this. But it seems fate isn't with him. Maybe it's right, he doesn't deserve the selfish succour of friendship after what he's done.]
No, I'm frightened of you learning the truth. I will lose you.
[He glares at the word 'frightened' as if it personally betrayed him.]
How could he know this? That's impossible. The John here was from a time before he had even met Mary, but then-- Sherlock had been returned home, why not John too? His tablet slips out of his hands before he even realises that he's laughing without humour.]
It seems so convenient that the man who had been so far behind him had suddenly caught up, that they were from the same point in time. Or near enough, from what he can tell, though he didn't know Mycroft had sent a car for John. He's still awaiting Culverton's attentions. Is it punishment for what he's done, so he can't hide from his sins? Or is this just a dying brain firing off nonsense while Culverton kills him?
He discards that at once. Nobody knows his brain like Sherlock does, and he knows this is real. He's not in his mind palace, he's not dying. Which means this is some hilarious penance for Eve, maybe even for trying to get drugs out of her, who the hell knows? It would be the truth and not the truth to say Culverton is going to kill him. He might succeed, it's not completely certain that John will get there in time, but he might not. Sherlock isn't sure whether he honestly cares one way or the other, and that's a truth to keep to himself.]
Mycroft is always meddling.
[Such an innocuous truth. It's amusing, in its own way, that Sherlock is so acquainted with lies that he can do it with the truth too.]
[He rubs at his head, slotting that piece of information into place to be worked on later. He will bring down Pierce, but he's not overtly dangerous enough to go after Sherlock himself, and so he's no good to help him save John.
All his work with Culverton gone, destroyed. Only a few drugs left to him after using a lot to overdose. He'll have to go after the Joker, it's his only recourse now.]
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I'm not sure what answer you want from me, John.
[That skirts the border of truth, but it's sort of there. Does he mean what does he last remember about Norfinbury, about the ice caves? Or what does he last remember overall? It skirts the edge because Sherlock is relatively sure he means the ice caves, John could have no way of knowing that he's been home and come back.]
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He's still thinking on how to answer this when his fingers move of their own accord to do it for him.]
I'm hiding my death price, I can't tell a lie. Don't ask me any more, John.
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Poetic is the word you're looking for, darling.
John casts an irritated look at Mary, and she glances away.]
Suppose there's no point asking if you're lying about that?
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[Imbecilic. He's embarrassed to have that reply connected to his name, but it's the truth and so out it popped.
He rubs a hand down his face again. Tired, heartsore, grateful.]
I'm not trying to lie to you, John, but broad questions might have answers you don't want to hear.
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Look, this is a dream, anyway. Which means I've probably crashed and am in a coma at the moment. It doesn't actually matter.
[Except this feels real. John looks over at Mary again, then down at his hands. No wedding ring.]
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Sherlock squints at the screen for a moment, is this somehow related to his death price?]
I can affirm that this is neither dream nor coma. Tell me why you believe it is.
[Yes, keep the questions on John, stop him asking any more himself. John is smart, he could winkle anything he wanted out of Sherlock right now and that has to be avoided.]
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You're funny. That's not actually helping.
[It's your sense of humor. Mary puts her hands up. Ask him something else. He's deflecting again.]
You're deflecting questions onto me, Sherlock. Are you really that worried about me taking advantage of your death price?
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No, I'm frightened of you learning the truth. I will lose you.
[He glares at the word 'frightened' as if it personally betrayed him.]
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How could he know this? That's impossible. The John here was from a time before he had even met Mary, but then-- Sherlock had been returned home, why not John too? His tablet slips out of his hands before he even realises that he's laughing without humour.]
Yes.
[That about sums it up, what can he say?]
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What are we doing right now, Sherlock?
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Adjusting to Norfinbury again.
You saw the DVD? When?
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He really is an idiot.
[But he's ours. Did you really think he'd pick up on you not just hanging up when he didn't get the coat?]
No.
[Tell him.]
He's not real.
[Neither am I.]
Mycroft sent a car for me after they got you set up with a room at Culverton's hospital.
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It seems so convenient that the man who had been so far behind him had suddenly caught up, that they were from the same point in time. Or near enough, from what he can tell, though he didn't know Mycroft had sent a car for John. He's still awaiting Culverton's attentions. Is it punishment for what he's done, so he can't hide from his sins? Or is this just a dying brain firing off nonsense while Culverton kills him?
He discards that at once. Nobody knows his brain like Sherlock does, and he knows this is real. He's not in his mind palace, he's not dying. Which means this is some hilarious penance for Eve, maybe even for trying to get drugs out of her, who the hell knows? It would be the truth and not the truth to say Culverton is going to kill him. He might succeed, it's not completely certain that John will get there in time, but he might not. Sherlock isn't sure whether he honestly cares one way or the other, and that's a truth to keep to himself.]
Mycroft is always meddling.
[Such an innocuous truth. It's amusing, in its own way, that Sherlock is so acquainted with lies that he can do it with the truth too.]
You have to be missing something, what is it?
[The death price.]
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[Which is another point in favor this all being fake. There's always a death price.]
Maybe my sense of direction's shot to hell. I won't know until tomorrow.
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[He won't want Sherlock near him, but he can make sure someone goes to John.]
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[John, don't be like that. You know what he did for you. What he's done for you. What were you driving to Culverton's hospital for?
John sighs to himself and it's a short while later after searching around that he adds more.]
Police station. Found four extra sets of handcuffs in a drawer. Where are you?
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[Is that a relief, or not?]
Contact one of your friends, Solomons or Barnes.
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Talk to him. John, you need to talk to him. He's dying. He's died for you. He'll keep killing himself for you if you don't say something.]
Bucky's been turned into Pierce's pawn. He was the Winter Soldier when I called him the other night.
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All his work with Culverton gone, destroyed. Only a few drugs left to him after using a lot to overdose. He'll have to go after the Joker, it's his only recourse now.]
Sorry.
Solomons, then.
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[It's as simple as that.]
He's got a big enough group. He doesn't need two more people.
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[Two more? John already has company?]
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No one. I meant Dug. I promised we'd come get him before we died.
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The answer clicks a second too late, and now there's nothing for it. He doesn't believe the lie about Dug, not for a second.]
You mean Mary.
[Still seeing her. He knows, he notices everything about John even when they're not together. He knows what's been going on.]
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